Is this a beginning

Last time i wrote anything that was almost 4 years bak wen i gave my last BE exam(May'06). That was it .... i thought i will not write ever ..... and believe me i did not break my promise until today ...... For me writing has always been burden.....Burden of thinking wat to write in d first place..... Burden of spellings..... Burden of forming a sentence..... Burden of arranging my thoughts....... Burden of sitting quite for some time may b burden of concentration..... i really don’t know wat it was.
But tell u all... I am vivid reader.... I read a lot .... only thing m good at..... give anything to read i will not complain. Problem has been with writing. I gave a thought ...... why is that i love reading and hate writing? Initially when i use to think about it i thought m just a lazy bum..... i thought i don’t have to put any effort in reading but i need lots of effort in writing ... I can lay on my back n enjoy reading but i need to sit for writing ...... But after almost 4 yrs i thought it cannot be just laziness.. it has to be something else .... But what it is i still don’t know may be while writing this i can think of something ..... Believe me i still don’t know why i am writing now. Let me jot down some points which is their @ the bak of my mind that Y I hate writing.
Firstly i am pathetic in writing to say the least and this is to do with my English .... am very bad in English , horrible ..... i did not want world to know that am this bad in English .... Speaking is so very easy b’cos i don’t have to spell any words and form a complete correct sentence. Secondly i was afraid that wat people might(i don’t know whether this is the correct spelling or not) think ..... “What he is BE and don’t know how to spell such a easy word he don’t know how to write properly” ..... Third reason can be that my father is a teacher and if he comes to know my problem of English he might be ashamed of himself that y cannot a teacher’s son be good in English (though he is maths and science teacher). Fourth reason is those geek fellows in English, self claimed experts ..... when they read something of urs they will not comment on ur writing wen u show them but when they are between lot of people their expert comments comes out and makes u so very low that u tend to think that u are illiterate. And believe me they do that purposely..... Fifth reason is i think i don’t have time to write down and believe me it’s just a mental block. Just an excuse for not writing. Sixth reason is TV  it is my friend it is. V just tends to watch all the cricket and football matches but when it comes to writing v don’t have time ...... Seventh reason can be our dear net(Internet) we love posting our gr8 pics in orkut and facebook , V love chatting with friends , late night chatting with preferred sex has become part of our life(If u hav net connection ...... otherwise jub chance mila) and its true for everybody who is reading this ...... i suppose there isn’t any exception in this. I too sit on net chatting for hours .... but never wrote anything as such(Chatting is not writing)...... Eighth reason is my company .... never gave any time to sit and write ..... all sites are blocked (i can blame my company it’s my blog ) ...... reason enough for me not to write anything . Ninth reason is staying out of my home(in pune home is in Kolkata) .... being out of home takes lot of effort .... i have to cook dinner daily ..... if too tired to make one then sleep hungry simple ...... reason enough for me not be adventurous (Writing ... 4 me is one)..... tenth reason is not having a GF ..... if u don’t hav one u hav to look 4 it and it takes time .... yes on weekends m busy looking 4 one so this explain wat i do on weekends......
So there are hell lot of reasons for me not to write. So Y now? There are lot of reasons for it Firstly my IPL team is losing and i can’t see my team losing so can’t sit in front of TV rather m trying to avoid TV these days.... Second reason is I want to write.... that’s it end of all discussion. From now onwards in my blog u will find world news, some interesting facts and some good fwded mails(yes V IT people hav lot of them) ..... And in between i too will put down my thoughts. I don’t know how to write conclusion..... I think my readers are cleaver enough to hav their own conclusion (Nice way to hide my ability to write one) ......
Gud byee .... And start writing ....